HURTS!! I don't know why i got the feeling that i'm being hurt or a feeling being throw alone.The feelings is back again and i hate that feelings alot alot. Why the feeling always want find me uh. Like chee bye sia.My heart suddenly become empty and i can't feel anything.I think my heart is already dead!!I can't feel the care from people, help from people especially Love from people.I'm so damn pissed off with this feelings already and why it's coming back once and for all.Can't you just get lost until my Nlevel is over, is making me can't study well.DAMN IT LARHH FUCKING CHEE BYE!!I felt so damn empty as though i'm in a dark room alone without anyone accompance and i can't get out of the room. Fuck man, at home i'm like that.Outside also like that. What the fuck?! Life is really being unfair!!!And this is the second time you saying you hate me.Anymore or not?!!!Whatever larhh, i just don't care anymore.. I've already prepare for the worst already.Anything i don't care, just suffer as much as possible and it will be over soon.Just tell you that you've change already!! Would you just be therefor me when i need you?Would you just stop all your nonsense?Would you just love as before?HAIS HAIS HAIS!!Labels: The love of ours have changed :'(
School today was alright for me and e-kin didn't attend school again :(she promised me but still same!! HAIS!!But after school went to meet e-kin and went to springfield to meet her sisters.Then went to her house and rest awhile and ekin's mother very cute sia!!HAHA!!went to inter and she buy her movie ticket and i buy my sushi.And homed around 4 plus. bath everything and took out my homework to do. So rare sia, i'll do work. HAHA!!Then started to rain suddenly and it rain heavily. Damn heavy.Lucky i reach home early sia, otherwise i drenched in the rain sia.then my mother called me ask me to fetch her because rain heavily.Then i tell her i doing homework and she was very shock sia. HAHA!! Then she say never mind you go study.done with my summary work and i'm done with all my homework!! but only chemistry not done yet, Haha!!I'm very stressed about something and i really don't know what to do. :(Anyways, i think that we don't have fated to be together barhh. We can be friends but not lovers. So stop pestering me okayys?!If we've chemistry, we'll be together already but now i'm already not available. You should know that snatching girl from you friend is something that is so evil.And is someone that is a bastard will do that. So stop texting or calling me, you're just irritating me, and making me pissed off alright.I just don't care about you and i don't want both of you to fight. Overall, you guys are still friends, so don't do things that hurt my guy alright?!And i'll never do thing that hurt my guy again too. I've learn my lesson and i know what's wrong and what's right okayys. So please, so pestering me alright?!I haven tell my guy about this but don't force me to do so too.Please larhh, we're only can just be friends and no more than that okayys. The limit that we can have is only friends, and i like you as friends only okayys.I don't care you say what love me or what, i don't care!!Because i only love my only guy that is AKMAL!!I'll also never go with someone that abused girl. Akmal is the guy that i love and the only one i want. He'll never abused me but only doted me, loved me, that's all.So what i want to tell you is stop loving me, irritated me, pestering me. FULLSTOP!!I'll never want to see you again, until you agree that you lost feelings for me and only we're friends. Until here, i just want to say Sorry that i make you got feeling for me.But i'm good to everyone and i like/love everyone.But my love is normal friends love not relationship love.I only love AKMAL okayys dude?!Labels: I only love AKMAL and his my only guy in my heart :D
Today school okayys to me. And after recess seeing people that make me pissed off so much.And i don't give the fucking care i just mention names then.CHEN TINGHUI AND MICHELLE GAN!!!This 2 bitches has just finding me problem, especially that CHEN TINGHUI!!What you want say just come to me and say, don't need to say behind people's back.That's what a coward will do and saying things that are so long ago!!please man, can't you just upgrade yourselves, i'm not doing that anymore already, people now is going somewhere that is more better than that. And you don't understand me or know me just shut your fucking mouth larhh.how about you? At least i can be faithful to a guy unlike you unfaithful. Can motek with other guys and can even let him do anything.I've better friends than you, i've a better result than you, i've a better relationship than you. I've everything better than you, Soooo you just fuck off of my sight and don't spoilt the great things i have larhh. Everytime saw you guys really damn pissed off, it just make my day damn fuck damn it. You guys are just like that slut in 4N2.Same character and same attitude and same behavior.Can let guys do anything and this is really disgusting alright.I fucking don't care what you guys want to say because the fucking mouth of yours is belong to you. But just stop that fucking nonsense you're doing because you're just like small kids and you guys belongs to primary school! i freaking don't care about what so i just posted a few status about them, and i hope they know i'm talking about them, and i wish them know too!!I don't fuck care them either. WHATEVER!!Another thing i'm so pissed off is my fucking father. I know i'm bad to say this but seriously, I HATE HIM!! whatever you guys want say i'm bad but i word HATE never been away from him. My sister hate him too, i also!!No matter what i do, he say i'm wrong.I tell my mother i've to pay my Nlevel he talk so much, say for what let me take.I also don't study! okayys fine, after my Nlevel i decide to go ITE and i fucking get lost of this freaking house. I work myself earn my own money!how i wish i can like my sister. HELLO!! i no longer a small kids okayys!! Since you don't like i study fine after Nlevel i go ITE and start working. And i seriously hate you to the core because you such a parents say this to me and say i should not take Nlevel. I don't want to be like you study until Secondary school only. seriously after my grandmother die he changed and i hate him alot. my family is really sucking to the core and i hate it alot. Every night crying to me is already bored. Cry for this family for what, do they care?! NOPE!!always i've to find my own ways to cover my feeling and attend school.I always must cover my hurts and attend school happily and smile.I always seem to be happy but in my heart, i'm not!All this while i never talk to anyone about my family, only my babysyg know some only. I always try to maintain my family as a great family and i control myself not to talk about it.But seriously this time i can't already.Now i know why always chinese children always commit suicide. Because the family is being strict to them, hello strict also must got limits rights! until the child die then regret this and that?! Got use merhh.?!seriously i really think of committing suicide, i got ask my mother once.If commit suicide izzit an offence? And she say yes, you will be handcuffed until your body send to funeral. I think twice and just forget it but now i feel that i rather been handcuffed better than in this kind of family. Do thing wrong one time that means you're wrong forever merhh?! Like people come out from jail changed into a new life means he's still bad izzit?!I can't believe my family is like that, seriously, i feel like dying. COMMIT SUICIDE!! :'(Why is life so unfair to me, why is everything so unfair to me?! I hate it, i really hate it!!!!I hate my life!!!!Labels: I HATE MY FAMILY AND I WANT TO DIE
school pretty boring today because almost all teachers come only Mr Vahhid never come.then ekin also never come school for some reason uh. I treat yangzhw eat oreo!! See i so good rights?HAHA!! lesson as per normal and today i'm super duper tired and i don't know the reason why.During chemistry i ALMOST fall asleep!! lucky i manage to keep myself awake uh. haha, then i keep answer the wrong answer!! HAHA!!After school got NAPFA!! and i plan not to go but that bloody school lock us.like we are in the jail like that!!WTH RIGHT!! Suppose all sec 4's can leave school early then want to lock us. Fuck to lower sec people act that they're sec 4 then leave school don't go CCA!!Damn right!!then make all sec 4's have to stay in school. But i think only this week or what uh, then sian tomorrow got CIP.hais hais hais. i thought of not attending school but i think for my studies and my friends.So attending school is the biggest enemy we've to face. HAIS!!SAW THAT BITCH REALLY KILLS BECAUSE SHE'S MAKING MY MOOD TO DOWN DOWN DOWN~~~~hopefully tomorrow will be a great day for me!!IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(IMISSYOUSYG!! :(Labels: syg imissyousomuch :(