♥ILOVEYOUAKMAL♥

Friday, October 29, 2010

Today is like finally i got to rest already. So relief!!
Firstly, i changed my braces colour to GREEN already.
Is acceptable larhh the colour and my dearest girlfriend accompany me to SGH!!!
So sweet right then we went to eat at EIGHTEEN CHEFS and went to play games.
Until our hands hurts so much. Slack2 until night meet up again settle our dinner then slack at DBS.
Yesterday i like a day i spend with my girlfriend, WHOLE day.
I love you Ekin!!!!
Then as for today, i planning go Halloween uh.
Yesterday wanted go with ekin, the BF and babysyg but last min say don't want.
Then today feel like going because my cousin also going.
I don't know larhh, now i want prepare and meet babysyg!! :)
Anyways, this month i watched a lot movie with babysyg. YEAH!!! Keep it up! <3

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Haze is getting much more heavier. I could feel the difficulties to breathe.
And not only that my mood is totally sucks!
A lot of thing make my mood really damn sucks to the core.
Only Ekin knows what happen.
I finally got the guys to text her and told everything out.
She say i should tell her earlier. If can i wish i to tell her earlier too.
Then i won't suffer so much already.
She say she want to confront him everything.
I wish she could too and he can stop everything.
But now, this thing settle another thing happen.
Hais, I'm really so damn stress larhh.
I never do all this thing but he did.
He never think for people feelings.!! _l_
I'm so fuck up right now. I caught a lot of red handed thing.
I got no mood to blog already, Bye!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

As predicted, I've no time to blog.
Just shorter my story is I woke up in morning, go to work.
After that end work meet babysyg and slack with friend until like 12 then go home rest.
Our days just pass like you blink you eyes.
Time go so fast and today is already wednesday.
Next week friday me and my girlfriend, ekin going SGH.
She accompany me go do my braces thingy.
A lot of things happened, and in one day i can't finsh blogging it.
Wait until the day i rest and I'm free i gonna do that.
Every single thing i remember deep inside my mind.
I think i blog until here, It's time to go work already. Bye people! :)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

I guess after today, I'll have very less time to blog already.
Due to working larhh.
After work meet syg until late night then reach home need rest all prepare for the next morning.
Hope so tomorrow working will be fun and great to me larhh.
Now i know i going back there to work, got a little boring feeling.
Not excited, Not happy but is boring and sad.
I feel like changing other job larhh but i got no choice because i haven find other jobs yet.
And another reason is money also. The current job i working pay is so damn low!
I can't find other job better sia. But is pending right now.
Like Cotton On, Times and Topshop.
Have to wait for their reply. So long sia.
My blog will be dead for sometimes already. :(
Sorry people!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Alright today, my day start off with wonderful things around me.
Especially, my babysyg! :)
I woke up around 9 plus due to breathless. I've flu since Friday and worst still nose block.
That's the worst part and i hate it and I've difficulties breathing.
I almost died because out of breath, i jump up the bed and use my mouth breath continuously.
After everything is normal, i called babysyg and check whether he's awake or not.
Because we planned to go Wild Wild Wet,
yarhh i know that's a boring place. But i got free ticket to go so just go play larhh. :)
As predicted, he's sleep in his sweet dreams.
I called him at least 4-5 times and he answer all the while hmmm me.
Confirm not enough sleep larhh.
I received his last msg was like 4 plus in the morning. He's not asleep.
I asked him why he never tell! :( Think I'll ask him again!
Then i meet him around 11.30 at my cousin house because i need go her house take bikini.
Eat at my house there the coffeeshop,
because we scared hungry when we playing at wild wild wet.
But i never eat because not in a mood to eat uh, and the weather is damn HOT!
Reached at Pasir Ris around 12 and when we enter is like boring already.
Play the SHIOK RIVER, TSUNAMI and SAMSUNG SLIDE.
That's what we play and we leave the place early like 2 plus because the weather is so damn HOT!!
Me and babysyg can't take it so want leave.
After we bath, i tell babysyg I'm hungry and he say go Burger King eat.
Because he want eat onion ring also. So we when there to eat a little.
After we eat we head down to Century Square to play the fish game.
I also don't know what game is that.
Then suddenly someone say " Jocelyn, you play what until so focus? In Chinese!
I look up and shock to saw YANGZHE!!
Haha! So shocking sia.
Left the place and 3 and when to BHG!
Bought syg his perfume and my eye shadow!! :D
When to bugis around 5 plus because scared later peak hours ERP increased to the MAX!!!
Then walk arpund suddenly found the dress i wanted to buy so much.
But i kinda regret because another shop the dress is so much nicer.
But syg promised me next time then come purchase because today i spend too much already.
I bought 2 dresses and syg buy one of his top.
When to ATM draw draw draw money like nobody business like that.
Haha!!!
After that around 7, we planned to go East Coast Park to settle our dinner.
We order string ray, satay, cockles and 2 plate of rices. 3 cup of sugarcanes.
The string ray isn't that delicious like before we eaten.
Satay is still the same and the cockles one word to describe is SUCKS!
The chili is really so damn spicy until i drink drink drink.
Can't take it sia, like the chili free want sia, put until so many.
But syg is so caring larhh, the scoop the chili until one side then take the string ray give me.
And he say if spicy but some more water. But i say don't want larhh waste money.
He open the cockles for me and give me. So sweet larhh!
He scared later make until my nail break :)
After that we when near to the beach there sit sit and relax.
So sweet at that moment, don't know why i suddenly feel like that uh, but really i feel the sweetness!
While we eating, we count the money we spend today.
200 bucks we spend and not a lot thing we bought sia.
Then we was like DAMN! Next time can't spend so much larhh!
Haha!!
But 1 hour later, babysyg stomachache. Then he when to toilet. 2 times some more!
I think is the cockles larhh!!
After when he come back with water, i tell him i also need go toilet.
Haha! At that moment i was laughing some more and he's laughing also.
ALL BLAME THE COCKLES LARHH!!!
Then i told syg want eat cockles next time eat at Habibi or Newton circus.
All this is trust able place to eat without going toilet. :)
After that i homed at 11. Syg scared i tired ask me go home rest.
But now syg outside slacking with Azri and jay they all :(
I scared he tired also sia but let him slack larhh! Haha!
I think i blog until here, i want go rest already. Because babysyg is nagging at me ask me rest.
Because i sick and headache also.
Good Night babysyg!! <3
Good Night my readers!

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Friday, October 15, 2010

YOU'RE REALLY TOO MUCH ALREADY!!
You're now stepping over my head already.
All you think that you're right but me wrong.
This is really so damn unfair okayys!!
You want me to do what i did but when i ask you you don't.
This is the way you treat me rights!!
What I'm to you?
Yarhh, I just wish birthday also wrong. But you lerhh?
You talk to her okayys!
You're really too much! _l_

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Akmal, my babysyg told me this and i'm all sweet by his words.

Make sure she's home safely.

Pick the nicest clothes for her because she only deserves the best
Hold her hand tight and never let go because she's too precious.
Carry her bag for her because i don't want her to be tired.
Sing to her when she's boring.
Play with her hair because she likes it.
Massage her around because she needs it.
Be there with her all the time because it'll shows her what love is.

I love you very much Jocelynn, Baby. We've gone through 2 years of relationship.
Highs and lows. Sweet and bitter. Happy and unhappy.
but we have always been going on strong
Nothing can stop us nothing at all.
We are meant to be.
Fate
Destiny
Love
Its all meant to be
baby.
You and Me
No one else
Forever together as promised.
We'll conquer the world with our love.
Thank you for coming into my life, Babyangel (:
I love you till the end of all time.

Till the end of my life.

Today I slept until like 10plus then i woke up because syg and ekin text me.
*SYG MESSAGE MORNING BABY AGAIN!
OMFG, he's so damn cute and sweet larhh, he wanted me to wake up early i think.
I went to brush teeth all and i text him. Guess he's next reply what?
' Why wake up so late?'
Haha!! I laugh all the way sia.
Yesterday didn't have the time to blog because i night time went to bugis with syg.
He bought me a couple watch and a couple Jade neckless.
The jade neckless lie those minahs / matreps often wear those kind uh.
I was so damn shock syg would buy that for me to wear also.
Syg like suddenly become bad boy, want pierce ear larhh.
Haiyo, I give him green light ask him go pierce larhh so like that i also can give reason pierce some more but he told me he's joking.
When i walk until this store and i saw the dress i wanted.
End up, snatch by a fat ass girl!
Damn sia, but lucky i never take larhh. Because the last piece is the model wearing,
and went the salesgirl take out the dress like pull the dress until like extend sia.
So if i wear also not nice already sia.
I was so damn angry and sad. But syg say will look for me the dress nicer and sexier.
But he also make me happy after that. Haha!
Suddenly, i feel having Akmal as my syg is also another happiness this in my life.
He'll cheer me up when i'm sad or angry. He'll always find things that i really want.
Must find it to make me happy. And he always success finding those thing.
That's why this is the reason i love him so much.
Thanks syg for being so special and always give me what i want.
ILOVEYOUAKMAL! :)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Dear Akmal,

We have turned 2 years 3 months recently! And going to be 2 years 4 months!
Congratulations to us, Babysyg!
After all these time, I couldnt believe we have gone this far.
You and me, in this wonderful world.
I just want to tell you how much you mean to me.
How much you can just make me lie down and bleed to death if you walk out of my life.
How much you can make me happy even when I'm at my lowest.
You mean everything to me, Babysyg.

After all these time, I came to realise my purpose of living in this world.
Its for you. You once said,"I cant live without you. I need you, Syg."
And instantly I know, I'm the one you've been looking for.
Well you know what? I am nothing without you. I can live without you. I need you too, Akmal.
You have been the highlight and wonders in my life. You thought me values of life,
how to be strong and stay strong and how to lose my ego.

I'm sorry if i've not been behaving, or hurting you deep inside.
I'm sorry if i ever broke our little promises.
I'm sorry if i've always attitude you.
But that's just me. I keep forgetting, and I do break promises.
But its you who taught me how valuable is a promise.
And that's why, no matter how many promises I broke,
i will never ever break our 1 ultimate promise.
That is, NEVER LEAVE EACH OTHER.
You can trust me on this my babysyg.
I will be the stupidest girl on earth if i leave someone so amazing like you.

Do you know why you're amazing?
Because you shower me with so much love.
You taught me the meaning of love. You showed me love. You proved your love.
And that is why, I've stick with you through the past years.
I would lose everything if i lose you.

All i want is, to grow old with you.
To wake up and seeing your perfect face first thing in the morning.
To get hugs from the back when i'm cooking.
To have your loving tender hands to treat me when i'm sick.
To have your touch when i'm alone.
To have your hands hugging me when i'm asleep.
To have you when i'm eating.
To have your company when i'm shopping.
To have your voice whispering in my ears.
To have you, every sinlge day.

And have you imagined love?
When we grow old, as days pass by for us, we'll see our kids grow all beautifully.
Seeing wrinkles forming on our faces.
And when we wake up each morning,
maybe i could spot a new wrinkle on yours while you spot on mine,
and we'll laugh it off together.
Maybe you could get me to spot a few white strands of hair on yours, while you do to mine. (:

See how much we can do as we grow?
And when we are too old and wrinkled, I wouldnt want us to part at all.
I will be sticking by you all the time because it is during our most risky period of all.
Its the time one of us might die to old age.
Even when i cant afford to, i wish i could snuggle right beside you.
If my legs can't afford to hug your legs when sleeping, I wouldn't mind.
So long my hands are strong enough.
Just so you know, i wish i would die first because i cannot imagine my life without you after that. I may be old and too weak to accept the fact my dear.
But on the other hand, that might be selfish of me, isn't it?
If you die first, at least you could die in my arms and i would be happy knowing you're so peaceful after that. But maybe..i would just leave it to God himself.
I'm sure he had it all planned out for us.

So,can you see it babysyg?
My life wouldn't be that interesting unless there's you in it.
And i chose you specifically because you're just a special boy.
Just so unique and awesome and that's why i love you. Forever and always will.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Today don't need attend school and lucky i've a good rest.
Yesterday Maths paper1 kills a lot of my brain cells and today all back.
I today must go tuition study a lot a lot.
Missing syg now, i woke up but all his msg.
HE SPAM ME MESSAGE!!
He keep ask me wake up, Haha!!
Don't know why suddenly i feel tuition rocks larhh!!
I want study liao, blog until here. :)

Today was really a bad day for me, what i've study have no link with what have been tested.
MATHS REALLY KILLS MY BRAIN CELLS TODAY!!
N level math was totally damn tough,
is totally different from what i've done from Ten Years Series.
N level maths cheated my feelings larhh!
DAMN!
I thought paper should be easy but ended up difficult sia.
But i manage to answer all question larhh, but those don't know answer i anyhow answer.
A lot of people thinks today maths paper is difficult. Hais~
Tomorrow i must go tuition already larhh, have to prepare for paper 2 already.
God please bless me larhh, help me for my paper2.
I must do well in paper2 in order to pass larhh!!
My mum reach home i told her about my paper, but she say this to me :
never mind you have already done your best and what is done is already done.
I try not to stress you but you stress yourselves, no matter what, mummy support you ok?
yarhh, i agree with my mother larhh, nobody stress me and i'm the one stressing myself sia.
I stress myself until i cancel right asnwer and wrote the wrong answer :(
Hais, utterly disappointed with myself larhh :(
I wanted to cry after they collected the paper,
i was like keep saying FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
My mother also found a job for me, work as admit at IMH!
Haha! i plan to work together with my girlfriend, ekin! :)
I think i blog until here larhh, i want rest liao, so tired larhh.
Syg now sleeping don't care me!!
But never mind larhh, he tired i as his girlfriend must understand what.
Haha! So i just let him rest larhh! <3
Tomorrow i don't need go school, huhu!

Monday, October 04, 2010

Today was awesome larhh. 3 paper crash together and i stressed for so many days!
Finally my difficult papers are over, just 2 more papers to go and i'm free already.
During my N level i do finish, i looking at my entry proof feel my exam pass so fast larhh.
Then can't wait do a lot of thing.
Haha!! Wednesday and Friday not going school because don't need go.
I want to change my job already, don't what job is that larhh.
but my girlfriend, ekin, bring me to work also somewhere near ehub.
I ajak kyn also because she want find job too.
Ekin can rights? Sorry uh never ask your permission then ask her uh.
But okayys want rights? Three friend work together!! Haha!
Bonding our friendship!!!
After my paper, me and kyn walk home together and we talking about SOMEONE!!!
hehe, this is secret, want know ask us personally alright? HUHU!!
Tomorrow my maths paper 1 and it start 2pm.
So late and great i can sleep until late2 :)
Missing someone right now! My babysyg!!
haha! I can't wait to spend time with him larhh.

Friday, October 01, 2010

HAPPY 2 YEARS 3 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABYSYG! :D
And today is also not a great day for me. BAD DAY! BAD MOOD!
hais, lazy to say what happened. I myself know can already larhh!!
ARGH!!
I lazy blog right now because i prepare to meet my mother.
Blog when i'm free uh, because today need study already! :(

My N level coming in 3 days time and I'm so scared larhh!!
My freedom coming in 1 week time after my N level ended!
I can't wait for my freedom to come larhh!!
After my N level i confirm go out until late2.
Planning go sheesha with my baby and girlfriends!!
Everytime when my N level is coming more nearer i'll keep think after N level do what.
1. Colour my hair what colour?
2. Should i do manicure?
3. Go where with babysyg for every outing?
4. Genting trip.
5. Pulau ubin.
6. Want go Night Safari.
7. Universal Studio S'pore.
8. Outing with Babysyg's family.
9. Ice skating at Kallang leisure park.
10. Babysyg want change motor but what motor?
11. Which motor should babysyg change?

Whoa, a lot of thing need to do uh. Haha!!
Tomorrow is me and Babysyg Anniversary.
2 years 3 months anniversary.
27 monthsary! <3>
Then sunday is me and my bestie anniversary.
1 year 4 months Anniversary.
16 monthsary! <3
haha!! Can't wait larhh!!
But i can't celebrate me and syg anniversary because of N level :(
Haisss~ But i promise syg after my N level i'll spend a lot of time to be with him.
And he agreed!!
I blog until here already need study :(

Labels: I love you my dear